moody, bitterness

am kinda moody and having a feeling of depress..
my parents were back from Aus yesterday and I quarrel with my dad yesterday night.
For me, is really a serious quarrel.
My personality is I'll forget those people who hurts me or even those uncomfortable feelings will gone after I woke up from bed. This time is being different.
I can sense that he's angry with me.
I woke up from bed when he gone out, I on PC after he came back and he didn't even approach me. This is so not his personality.
I don't mean to hurt him unfortunately am a human being after all...
am totally lost and I don't even know how to apologize..
I should but how am I going to tell him.
Is kinda tough for me :(
my heart is full of bitterness...
HOW?!
I scared to face him now..

Back to normal XD

Days go by days and today is the day that parents would be coming back from Australia. They will reach home approximately 9a.m. am so happy and wanting to see them unfortunately, I went out during that time.
I'll tell you guys how I manage to survive without my parents :)
As usual, we used to ta pao from outside and eating too much of msg food til I hurt my health.Apart from that, am actually looking some jobs and just don't give up to seek job till siao^o^~~`
thank God that I managed to work for matta fair. At first I was really unwilling to work there and was planning to quite for the following of the days.It ain't easy and in fact the boss was actually the one that keep putting stress on us and even got scolded after the work. I felt uncomfortable working there and in the first place, my friend put an aeroplane on me.Haihzz.end up, working alone but getting to know some of the frend.
I don't actually managed to close the sales but I really need to give praise to my fren that helped me to close a sales on the second day. I wouldn't success if without his help..:D
neway, am sooo happy that parents bought me heaps for me..:)

a lil emo XD

am indeed boring >.<
Today is the sixth day of Home Alone...
Parents were away...
No one that I can play with...
Friends were schooling, working, and bla bla bla...
I miss someone...
I have no idea what am I doing now..

Planned...Everything...

Result was out today. I was indeed excited and wanting to know whether I pass or I fail.. I checked approximately 11 and I was wondering at that moment..*cos I can't check my result and was really angry with the system of the school*..=) Later on, only I realised that am wrong cos I actually click on the wrong key.haha..

Here's come my result..I FAILED Business Finance ...=p *am not those smart person* :D
Not consider shocked. Hmmm, cos I really don't know how to answer those Questions in Business Finance.. :)who knows that happen next..

As you guys can see what happen to me few days ago. I was wondeering why am I not in the list of OCBC.?! Furthermore, I went to church this two days and found both different pastors were preaching the same sermon to me. One of them was speaking regard to the Jesus is always there for us and we shouldn't see things that's only in front of us which means we should look beyond..The other pastor,on the other hand, was saying that don't give up. We can place our hope in GOD..I truly believe that.cos HE is the one who always there for me and lending me his hand to hold me tight in HIS side. WONDERFUL GOD..THANK YOU LORD...

I was actually searching lots of jobssss and yet I couldn't find any...It could be GOD's will..cos I thought everything might have well-planned...I know HE holds my future and ...I shouldn't give up..
Besides, I should be thankful though I failed a subject..Other subjects consider not bad. Is out of my expectation.. Anyway, thank GOD for it larh...

I was a lil emo due to the a member in lovely ones=sista is going to abroad to Aus tonight... :) again,I felt lonely cos nobody will accompany me larh..*sob* In fact, parents will be going over few more days. I shall sing the song of Lonely by Akon..:D I shall try my best to hold my tears..I wanna be strong.. :)